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If I Don't

ReleasedNovember 25, 2024
Track5 of 8
5
3:07
Elevated
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Lyrics

I'd be lying if I said just trying would keep me quiet

I was born into a role, from the get-go I was told
I'm a fire soul, I am here to break the hold, I was
Sent here for a mission, make 'em listen, break tradition
Spill it out, sing it loud, yeah go gather up a crowd, if I don't

Become an angel or hero I'm zero
That's my fear, oh

If I don't get to do all of the things I'm trying to
All that matters is I try, yeah well that's a straight up lie
Yeah that's what I tell myself when I'm wishing on this well
Yeah if I can't work my magic well then that'd be straight up tragic

Was I meant to be an angel on the street, inconspicuously?

If I don't make the earth shake for heaven's sake I might just break
Lay me down to sleep for eternity, and if I
If I don't make my parents proud will there always be a cloud over me?
Even when I'm fast asleep?

If I don't get to do all of the things I'm trying to
All that matters is I try, yeah well that's a straight up lie
Yeah that's what I tell myself when I'm wishing on this well
Yeah if I can't work my magic well then that'd be straight up tragic

I'd be lying if I said just trying would keep me quiet
That goal I'm eyeing, yeah I'm talking sky and
Eagle feather flying, it's the only place I'm dying

If I don't get to do all of the things I'm trying to
All that matters is I try, yeah well that's a lie
Yeah that's what I tell myself when I'm wishing on this well
Yeah if I can't work my magic well then that'd be tragic

About This Song

Introspective journal entry exploring the possibility of never being able to fulfil a role or purpose in life.

What is the song “If I Don't” by Chad Lewine about?

The song encapsulates something I've felt/experienced my whole life: a knowing that I have so much to give but not having an outlet to do so.

— Chad Lewine

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